Tuesday - Anticipating Insomnia

[ninanevermore]

I won't sleep well tonight. I'm hoping that in not sleeping well, I'll still be awake at 5 A.M. when I have to get up, and not fall asleep at 4:30 A.M. and sleep through the alarm only wake up at 7:30. Since my new commute is 40 miles (city miles, not highway miles) I could not make it there by 8 A.M. if that happened, even if I had a helicopter (and I don't).

I know I won't sleep well because I have been able to sleep the night before a first day of anything. As a child, I never slept well before the first day of school. I always slept well after it, though, because I was so exhausted. Later when I worked as a temp after college, I never slept well the night before a new assignment. A series of short term assignments messed with my circadian rhythms something awful, as I would miss sleep every couple of days.

I hate beginnings as much as I hate endings. I like the middle part the best, where you have enough room in front of you to move forward with confidence and enough room behind you to be comfortable on the path you're on.

But I guess you can't reach the middle unless you start a new beginning. My goal is run toward the middle as fast as I can, and then start dragging my feet so I don't reach the end too fast. I'll let you know how that works out.


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Comments

[bbart.livejournal.com]

Congrats on the new job.

I too never sleep well the day before my first anything.

[neanahe.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Good to know I'm (somewhat) normal in this regard. :)

[agirlnamedluna.livejournal.com]

Good luck and congratulations on the new job!!

[neanahe.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

how that works out.

[regatomic.livejournal.com]

i'm sure you'll forget that whole process in no time,..;)

[hermes-wade.livejournal.com]

Good luck!

[neanahe.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Wade.

Lemme know if you need to bury anyone. Maybe I can cut you a deal. ;P

[hermes-wade.livejournal.com]

Hmmmmm, perhaps I'll go ahead and make my OWN arrangements. With all the stress I've been under lately, the ticker might just go at any moment...

[libra-dragon.livejournal.com]

Congrats and good luck!
I have never done well the night before things either.

[neanahe.livejournal.com]

Thanks. The sleepless thing turns out to be pretty common. And all these years I thought I was just some kind of wussy freak. *whew*

[ayoub.livejournal.com]

I know that feeling well...

I usually just give in to it, start a movie marathon, and stock up on the caffiene...

[neanahe.livejournal.com]

And miss the fun of tossing and turning all night? Of reaching the outer brink of sleep, only to startle myself awake with a gasp? How could movies be better than that?

But I will stock up on the caffeine. Night owl that I am, it's the only thing that makes life bearable for me.

[ayoub.livejournal.com]

A horror movie marathon would be!

[neanahe.livejournal.com]

But no zombie movies, since as of tomorrow I am the newest employee of the corporation that buries more people in north america than any other. On the bright side, I'll be in the big cheerful office building, not in one of the outlet funeral parlors.

In my job I will be dealing with a lot of funeral directors over the phone. Zombie flicks might be a little too close to home...

[mugglemomjsw.livejournal.com]

Good luck!! Maybe you should take a Tylenol PM or something pretty early... Sometimes it helps. Let us know how your 1st day goes!!

[neanahe.livejournal.com]

Benedryl, maybe? That should do the trick.

[neanahe.livejournal.com]

Obviously, you have never worked for a bankrupt corporation with the ax of unemployment hanging over you head for years at a time. I still thing endings suck.

[neanahe.livejournal.com]

"Once its fall is certain, there is no more need for struggle, only acceptance..."

Just like drowning.

That's my ranking of things exactly. Some endings are okay (suck as your hospital stay is over and you get to go home), but mostly I like to be certain of the terrain under my feet.

[jenelycam.livejournal.com]

I hope it was a good first day!!