Grief DOES make you a zombie. I was one for months after I miscarried and lost my father-in-law within two days and I KNOW it wasn't good for my kids to have a zombie mom.
I hope you can see now, your dad DID Love you desperately, he just couldn't cope. I know we parents are supposed to pull ourselves together for our kids and ideally we do but sometimes it takes time.
I am glad Jeff loves you and helped you with the tree anyways, even though he probably didn't understand.
My kids decorate just like Sweet Pea with a million all on the same branch:)
I'm so glad you have your little son.
I wish you hadn't lost your mom. It really made me sad reading how you even put on the Christmas music and all. I know she must have been amazing to raise a daughter like you..which probably only makes you miss her more.
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carisma_sensei
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Date: 2009-12-21 04:15 pm (UTC)Grief DOES make you a zombie. I was one for months after I miscarried and lost my father-in-law within two days and I KNOW it wasn't good for my kids to have a zombie mom.
I hope you can see now, your dad DID Love you desperately, he just couldn't cope. I know we parents are supposed to pull ourselves together for our kids and ideally we do but sometimes it takes time.
I am glad Jeff loves you and helped you with the tree anyways, even though he probably didn't understand.
My kids decorate just like Sweet Pea with a million all on the same branch:)
I'm so glad you have your little son.
I wish you hadn't lost your mom. It really made me sad reading how you even put on the Christmas music and all. I know she must have been amazing to raise a daughter like you..which probably only makes you miss her more.
::Hugs::